Hopefully have my UCAS sent off by monday :)

Have a meeting with my advisor tomorrow morning, and then hopefully should be referred to the Head for a final meeting on friday, paid, and sent off asap :)

Can't wait to get offers..

I'm not applying for the most exciting courses, but I'm looking forward to Uni nonetheless.

Gonna be applying to:

• Hull Uni - Zoology
• Hull Uni - Aquatic Zoology
• Bishop Burton - Applied Animal Science
• Bishop Burton - Animal Management and Welfare
• Lincoln Uni - Animal Behaviour Science

Skunk

I gave blood today :)

It was a bit of a disaster to begin with as the nurses (the bloodmobile was at my college for the day) were running an hour late, pushing my 3pm appointment back to 4pm, then they couldn't find a vein, and then I ended up getting a local aneasthetic due to my "queazy" nature :P (apparently i looked pale and woozy and they thought the needle would make me faint).

However, 30 mins after entering the bus I left with a mint biccy and a sticker :) and minus a pint of my blood, happy though, and something I'm gonna do on a regular basis.

Skunk

...I'll just have a little rant.

To be quite honest I'm pissed off so much to the point that I feel sick to my stomach and just wanna stay in bed all day, I don't wanna see anybody, and I feel like ripping some shit up.

This has been a regular occurance for quite a while, and despite me trying to remedy the events that make it happen, I've failed every single time. Thinking it'll never happen again, it does.

I sometimes have this slight voice in my head saying I'm being over dramatic and I should just leave it alone, but then I think, no, wait, this is bullshit, this shouldn't be happening, and if it hurts me so much why does this man made disaster keep occurring?

I've had to rethink my situation quite a lot, keeping the troubles hidden from 99% of others, and keep that fake smile on.

But today, just one slight thing happened and I found my ok mood hit the floor faster than that £800,000 sports car hit that lake the other day. I'm beyond anger, I'm just so fed up with it all that I'm wanting to cut myself off from all the troubles and just be like how I was.

No doubt a certain somebody is gonna be fuming that I wrote this, but I've tried everything else and I just need to outline how I feel, and get my thoughts out there before it tears me apart once again.

Advice would be greatly appreciated.

Skunk x

I've had my very beautiful Bearded Dragons for just over a week now. Both are ladies n.n

Very pleased about their progress, they both have great appetites and started to hand feed today! They are so incredibly tame and love to chill out on me while I watch tv, or do homework. 

The smaller has already shed, and I have a feeling that the larger is going to shed any day now, as her colours have muted from being a bright lemon and orange, to dark sandy browns; just like the other did. 

I /still/ don't have names for my girls, and really need some help! Any advice on what kind of names I should call them, i.e. Australian City names, flowers, etc, would be very helpful, as I just have no clue. 

Yesterday  I got two beautiful, female (as far as we can tell), bearded dragons.

I got them from a Reptile Rescue Centre in Hull, they did the vivarium (4" x 2" x 2") second hand, as well as rocks and branches. They cleaned it all out, set up the lighting system, heating and thermometer, including a ceramic bulb for night time heating. They also sorted me out with a food bowl, crickets, locusts and substrate. They did all this, including the two beardies, for £215. Fantastic value for that kind of set up if you ask me. 

They also answered any questions that I had, such as the what kind of greens you can't feed them, like iceberg lettuce. And about gut loading the insects (which now live happily in they're own little vivarium :).

One of my beardies is a yellow colour morph, and one is more dark brown, sandy and with orange streaks. 

They've settled in very well, eating a lot, and are very tame, happily sitting on my shoulder and falling asleep.
 
The yellow one is larger, and so seems more dominant. I've started feeding them seperately so that the little one has a chance of catching her prey, which at the moment is locusts and silent crickets (which aren't silent). 

Still need names for them though, thinking of calling the larger one Afaari. 

Will get some photos later on. 

 I'm really stuck with my personal statement T_T

Finally, it's the last year of my college education, and I'm excited to get it done and over with.

As you know, I didn't really get the grades I was hoping for, so, this year I know I gotta work harder than I ever have before. Eugh T_T. 

Start tomorrow at 8.30am, and carry on with my IT, Psychology and Maths <3

Really hoping I get an A, at least an A, by the end of this academic year. 

 Find out today whether I've been kicked out of college or not, stomach is in knots >_>.

 I've been up since 6.30 this morning, very unusual for me :P I got a shower, had some food, and headed out to my staff meeting at 8am >_<. Then went shopping, bought some clothes, some of my faviourite perfume (Christian Dior - hypnotic poison) and also went on a hunt for a new pet.

Had a look at bearded dragon kits, £190 at one place, and over £400 at the other ><. Gonna wait for another month on that one, also, I've been absolutely in love with love birds <3 for quite a while. So, seeing as we already have an aviary with budgies and hook billed red - rump paraqueets, and so thought that birds would be the most economic pet to buy right now, as I already have the set up.

I went to lots of pet shops in Hull and the local area and couldn't find love birds anywhere, my search finally took me to a garden centre 15 miles out of Hull in Skirlaugh. I asked about love birds, and they said they'd have some by the end of the week. Ace n.n. However, when I mentioned about having them in an aviary with other birds, he said there was no way I can have love birds in with any other bird as they are incredibly vicious and would even kill a parrot (they're ankle chewers >_>). 

In the end, I ended up buying 4 beautiful cockatiels, 2 mating pairs :). They seemed to integrate well into the aviary with the others, but will keep a close eye on them.

When we first built the aviary we built it up against a brick shed, which was originally going to be just for caring for young birds and breeding. However, due to a rat problem and losing many of our birds (we live in a semi - rural area), going from around 50, to about 12, we decided to get rid of the problem before concentrating on breeding. Now that this has been sorted out, we're gonna put the shed back into working order and start breeding :) I am so excited about it :D. This may mean that during this I can sort out housing for rats and rabbits, as well as a separate aviary for love birds <3

Gonna leave you with this tattoo design that I really want for my 18th. 

 I feel utterly sick today, I felt a bit queasy this morning, due to being worried about Fiox taking his resits today.

When I picked him up we went to our usual coffee place and I decided to try their "special", Minty Iced Latte, sounds nice on paper, and pretty ace when you first get it. Having coloured layers of green, white and brown. I must've had about 2-3 sips of it, and now I feel so grossed out by the thought of eating anything >_< EUGH GIP!

Good luck Fiox

 I'm at a bit of a loose end, and feel like I'm doing nothing productive (despite working my ass off). 

This has mainly come on due to failing all my subjects and college, and having to face the prospect that I might get kicked out. 

So, until the 3rd, when my meeting at college is, I'd like you guys to suggest something for me to learn how to do.

I've learnt how to do basic knitting this summer :3

Spade x

 Seems like however hard I try at life, I don't get the results I want..

Needless to say, I didn't get the grades I wanted, and now my place at my current college is at risk. 

Just don't know what to do, I'm shocked, disappointed, and feel totally hopeless. 

 That's how long it is till I get my AS Results, and I'm absolutely kacking it.

I never really put my whole into this year, and I regret it so much. 

Some exams I think I did well in, and was really confident about, however, I felt like that last year with some of my GCSEs and I didn't do as well as i thought. 

I really hope that tomorrow I've got some results that will make me happy, is a few As too much to ask for?

It'd make my day if I get a few As.

If anyone is interested, I take Psychology, IT, Maths, and French (which I'm dropping this year D:)

*pouts*

Spade x

 I realised something to day, in 14 weeks and 5 days I'll be 18. 

I know when I turn 18, that I'll be able to do more things legally, and it's also a step closer to going to uni (which I can't wait to do). But, it also means I'm getting older and more mature, I'll no longer be the teenager, and I feel that more will be expected of me because I'll be older.

I'm sure most go through this, (just look at the myths of the Fountain of Youth) and that it's all part of growing up, but it's really hit me this morning. When I was 16, I never wanted to be 17, and now that I'm 17, I don't want to be 18. It's frustrating as there is nothing that I can do about it that I'll eventually get older like everyone else.

I suppose I'm scared of wasting my life away, I'm getting to the age of 18 and I have nothing to show for it. What if I get to 50, and I've made nothing of my life? That, at 17, I was made to make decisions about the rest of my life, regarding career, and it was wrong?

My choices of uni, courses and careers, are so erratic, I must have changed what I've wanted to do about 15 times in the last year. From Neuroscience at Manchester, Midwifery at Kingston, Psychology Doctorate at Hull, and now I'm dead set (like I was with all my other choices) on Animal Management and Training/Behaviour at Bishop Burton. Even the most influential person in my life things I'm making the wrong decision, and my teachers are getting frustrated by my changes. 

With this latest choice, Animal Management, I just think it'd be something that I'd enjoy, and it'd keep me interested in learning, rather than either having a gap year, were I probably wouldn't go back, or choosing something that I feel is expected of me, some kind of "professional" course, like Psychology, or Business Management, that I'd end up being bored of, and most likely dropping out. 

I suppose I'm scared of making the wrong choices or doing something I don't want to do to make other people happy. 

Spade
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 I'm now on xbox live, so add me n.n

My gamertag is Skunkette 

Anyone wanting to co-op, or whatever, on Guitar Hero, that would be ace n.n 

 Recently got my first pay slip, was £190 short, but seems i've only been payed for 2 weeks, upto the 16th July. Plus £35 down due to TAX, erm? Thinking that this might be emergency tax?

Also, star_paw and Iffriel got a rat recently, but it doesn't seem to be taking very well to the other ratties that they have. So, I'll be taking him off their hands n.n. He seems really lovely, so, just gonna get a home set up for him over at my place and go and get him :). But, tbh, I really don't know what to call him, any ideas (he's a male rat, quite big, and black and white)?

Another thing, I've looked into courses at Bishop Burton, a local agricultural college. They do courses in Animal Management & Welfare, as well as Applied Animal Science, both are university degrees ran by Hull Uni. They seem really good, and I think this is most likely what I'll go for, only thing putting me off is how low the offers are, all I need is 140 points, where usually you need around 280, but I suppose it's because it's agricultural? Going to the open day on the 15th, find out which course I'd go for then. 

That's about it I think?

Spade x

Oh, Fiox moved into his new student house, it's pretty nice :).

Now working on her legs, finished one, and have one more to do :)

Have some cleaning up of edges to do, but that's about it. :)

 



Spade x

 
So, I've made a start on my suit. 

I've carved both footpaws, and attached them to the shoes, all foamed up now.
I also made 6 green claws out of fimo, which I think are pretty cool n.n.
I've furred one paw, and got the sole (made from black pleather) ready.



Looking good for my first attempt :) Pretty pleased with it n.n

Any advice, hints and tips?

Spade x

 T - 8 hours till I start making my partial suit of Spade n.n

So excited, first day off work since I got all my foam and fur and can't wait to start carving and furring :)

I got all my sketches sorted, just need to do measurements. 

I'll be making foot paws with legs that go past my knees and hand paws that have arms that go have way up my harm, so that I can wear her with shorts and t-shirts, and also a HUGE floofy tail n.n. Was going to be making a tail that could be raised, or one that had a frame of wire so it could be curled at the tip, but I decided on having a huge floofy tail, like the green skunk below, as I think huge and floofy are a great combo ;).

I drew inspiration from two suits, one of a spotted (yummy) green (!) skunk :) which has made me want to use lime green fur in some parts, luckily I have heaps of lime green faux fur :), and one of a luskwood husky which has helped me with changing aspects to hopefully make it cuter, like the tube legs; which I adore. 



www.furaffinity.net/view/1432380/



luskwood.org/costume/gallery/canines/nataliecevichelimahusky/2 

I'll be posting about progress over the next few days, as they need to be finished by Friday, in order to go upto Fioxy's for the evening before we head off down to London on the saturday for the meet n.n

Spade x

EDIT: Info on what I will be making exactly n.n